Shadow Play

So, since that Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha shithead liked my last post again, although I roasted him in it, I just left him a comment on his blog asking if he’d stop liking my posts without even reading them if I followed his blog. If there is no response and he keeps liking them, I’ll send him an e-mail or something 😂. Jesus!

Yesterday I got recommended this song (in the original MV you can really see that they’ve done a lot of plastic surgeries… not so healthy XD):


조심해 play girl
Be careful and play, girl

뒤를 쫓아가는 발걸음을 들킨 걸까
Did the footstep following behind get caught?

(Shadow love 쉿)
(Shadow love shh)


아무말 없이 전부 따라해
Imitate everything without saying a word

널 조금씩
You little by little

나 두근두근해
I’m (my heart is) pounding

I feel nervous


빨간 불빛아래 너와 나
Under a red light you and I

두 손 움직여 따라해봐요
Moving two hands, try to imitate

자꾸 널 보면 웃음이 나
Whenever I see you I have to laugh

지금껏 본 적 없는 환상의 세계 그곳에 너를 데려갈 거야
I’ll take you to a fantasy world you haven’t seen up until now


그림자 play play play play play play
Shadow play play play play play play

그림자 trick trick trick trick trick
Shadow trick trick trick trick trick

Shadow shadow shadow


모든 것이 너를 위한 rum pum pum pump
Everything is a rum pum pum pum for you

Shadow shadow shadow

모든 것이 나를 위한 rum pum pum pump
Everything is a rum pum pum pum for me

Shadow shadow shadow


Scared of your own shadow

두 눈은 가린 채로

With your two eyes closed

내 그림자 속에 넌 갇힐 걸
You will be trapped in my shadow


무덤덤한 뻔한 그런 flow로 기대마
Don’t expect a calm obvious flow

Confirm, we’re outta control


Gotcha, so what you gonna do?

번쩍하고 느끼겠지 이건 déjà vu, yah

You will flicker and feel it, this is a déjà vu, yah

마지막 경고인걸 달아나 달아나 내게서
This is the last warning, run, run away from me

도망가
Run away


빨간 불빛아래 둘이서
Under a red light the two of us

비밀스러운 시간인걸요
It’s a secretive time

이제 내 눈만 바라봐요
From now on, look into my eyes only

지금껏 본 적 없는 환상의 세계 그곳에 너를 데려갈 거야
I’ll take you to a fantasy world you haven’t seen up until now


그림자 play play play play play play
Shadow play play play play play play

그림자 trick trick trick trick trick
Shadow trick trick trick trick trick

Shadow shadow shadow


모든 것이 너를 위한 rum pum pum pump
Everything is a rum pum pum pum for you

Shadow shadow shadow

모든 것이 나를 위한 rum pum pum pump
Everything is a rum pum pum pum for me

Shadow shadow shadow


어둠이다 본심을 숨겨
It’s the dark, hide your real intention

잠들 시간야
It’s time to fall asleep

불 밝혀 이 손을 잡어
Light it up, take this hand

너 아직 모르겠지 특별한 경험
You must still not know this special experience

War

내 맘을 느낀다면 따라해
If you feel my heart, imitate me


그림자 play play play play play play
Shadow play play play play play play

그림자 trick trick trick trick trick
Shadow trick trick trick trick trick

Shadow shadow shadow


모든 것이 너를 위한 rum pum pum pump
Everything is a rum pum pum pum for you

Shadow shadow shadow

모든 것이 나를 위한 rum pum pum pump
Everything is a rum pum pum pum for me

Shadow shadow shadow


Stupid


The spiritual meaning of shadow is this:

“The spiritual practice of shadow encourages us to make peace with those parts of ourselves that we find to be despicable, unworthy, and embarrassing.” (Source)

This morning it came to me (shared via Instagram):

It came to my mind that the shadow theme popping up since yesterday (shadow pic, recurring shadow theme in songs) is a sign for me to finally fully embrace all the parts of myself that I used to be embarrassed about, despised or found unworthy (spiritual meaning of “shadow”) and play around with them. WOW! OKAY! Also been drawing the worthiness card a lot these days, now it all makes sense!

And today more synchronicities occurred that also made more things clearer. During the last few days I drew these cards a lot (on angelmessenger.net):

Daniel Angel Card Extended Description - Messages from Your Angels Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue
Healing Heart Card Extended Description - Magical Mermaids & Dolphins Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue
Worthiness Card Extended Description - Mermaids and Dolphins Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue

As I’ve said before, I’m not married and I don’t want to get married, but that marriage card keeps showing up XD. And today, as I was doing some new work at the cafe, I made and decorated cookies. The funny thing is, the colors red (“Under a red light”, the color of the aura of the guy 😂) and green (healing color, very prevalent in my aura as well) kept popping up everywhere (for example red-green sprinkels, which I don’t think is a common nor appetizing combination 😂). Do we really belong together?! Feels like we’re an old couple XD.

So, yesterday I made a joke about men and the guy, as expected, completely ignored it. Man, that guy must have some deep wounds. Since I’m fucking done with stupid mind games, I’m just gonna straight up ask him tomorrow if he has been hurt by a girl in the past and now is afraid of talking about guy/girl stuff 😂. Of course he might just play it off again like the time I asked him if he’s afraid to talk about “deep stuff”. He says he isn’t, but his behavior tells me otherwise 😂. Dudes (and dudesses 😂), I can see, read and feel (psychic) you all, you cannot hide stuff from me 😂, so don’t even try 😂.

So, the song is about playing around with shadow aspects of yourself. I am naturally very direct and open, but I used to be very insecure and cautious about it. But now, I just say what I think without being afraid and consciousness tells me to play around with that a little bit 😂. The song also mentions déjà-vu, which is basically what my life feels like these days. Nothing actually feels new or surprising to me, it’s just all like memories and knowing.

It feels like this song is about me and that guy, like I’m supposed to approach him and get him out of his shell, play around a little bit with my shadow self (Shadow play play play play play play) and captivate him with it (You will be trapped in my shadow) XD. I actually had a dream before where we were playing around lovingly ^_^ It was lovely XD.

I know that he visits my blog and social media every day, but he doesn’t know that I know and he probably also doesn’t really understand most of what I say here, because first of all, his English is not very good and secondly, since he is so caught up in the material world, I don’t think he doesn’t really understand nor is really interested in this spiritual stuff (which I really hate XD, hence the “Stupid” at the end of the song XD). If I go deeper, he ignores it as well. So that tells me he doesn’t understand and is afraid of it, although he of course denies it when I ask him about it (Scared of your own shadow), smh XD. Poor little kid XD. Doesn’t even know about his fate (You must still not know this special experience) XD.

Don’t expect a calm obvious flow. Yeah, I’m not someone who likes boring routine and “normal obvious” relationships where everything is predictable and stable. First of all, I am not predictable myself (but once I’m truly interested in someone I’ll stick to only them for quite a while) XD. I can change my mind a 1000 times in just 1 minute XD and I’m not afraid of talking about stuff that other people would normally find embarrassing, so I’m just gonna talk and ask “shocking” questions whenever I feel like it XD. Idk why people are so embarrassed and afraid of certain things. Well, social conditioning, no?

Anyway, I’ll take you to a fantasy world you haven’t seen up until now 😘 XD.

PS: The name of the group is PinkFantasy (pink = love, compassion, playfulness, etc.)… And I’ve been drawing this card several times a day as well, so yeah, that says everything XD:

Chantall

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