To Lucy β€οΈπŸ˜‚ & No Boundaries

Boy, physical existence is not funny πŸ˜‚. I’ve said it before and I say it again, I don’t want to be trapped in this human body πŸ˜‚. I just wanna dissolve and become light or nothing or whatever πŸ˜‚. I hate this shit πŸ˜‚. This may be my period talking or the fact that I slept at 5 am and woke up at 10:10 am, because consciousness thought it was a good time to hit me with a psychic experience or something πŸ˜‚. Anyway, my brain is a little foggy right now, so I’ll just write down my thoughts and experiences for today in no particular order XD

Since Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha hasn’t responded to my comment, I assume he really liked my posts without reading them. Oh well 🀷. Maybe one caught red-handed πŸ˜‚.

I also left a comment on Lucy’s blog (Lucy’s Works) aaand turns out she does actually read stuff, so I removed her from the “roast list” at her request. Btw, if you’re on there and read this and want to talk to me about it as well, then please talk to me! People never say anything, it’s annoying! Don’t be so afraid, people! In my case, I don’t really care if you want to insult me or get angry at me or whatever. I really don’t take anything personally anymore at this point.

Funny, in the past I would have been embarrassed and removed the post, but now I don’t think anything, I don’t feel guilty or bad. I don’t think anything of myself and I don’t think anything of other people. Shit I say on the surface is said out of consciousness, so there is no guilt or bad feeling coming up, there is no right or wrong. At this point, I wouldn’t even care if someone spread a really “embarrassing” picture or started a rumor or whatever about me somewhere, there is no fucking “I” anymore. I can’t. As I am writing this I’m tearing up again.

I am just whoever or whatever I look at. That’s what consciousness is. That’s what you are, that’s what I am, that’s what it means when someone says “We are all one”. We are literally all one, okay? All the same fucking consciousness that plays this fucking game for whatever reason. Man, come on consciousness, I’m tired, I don’t want to exist πŸ˜‚. Please let me gooooo πŸ˜‚.

Lucy, since you liked my last post, I want to ask you (and maybe also the other people who liked that post if you read this as well), did you have a similar experience? Do you know what I was talking about?

So and then I also sent that guy a reply straight up asking if he avoided talking about men and women, because he got hurt in the past, as I said I would do in this post. His replies have been really short and reserved, especially during the past 2 days πŸ˜‚, he also hasn’t visited my blog in 2 days, Idk what’s going on, maybe he’s scared or something, maybe he got something going on. We’ll see. There are only 2 options here: shut down and run away or open up a little πŸ˜‚. I keep drawing the new-romance-is-imminent card tho, so let’s see πŸ˜‚. You never know what happens, maybe consciousness will send someone entirely different πŸ˜‚.

Oh yes, and today I also read this:

“A person who is angel number 828 is the individual whose enthusiam knows no boundaries and their courage can help them to pursue their goals until they’re realized. This kind of persistence is one of a kind and can help number 828 to stand apart from others in many aspects.” (Source)

Because I came across angel number 828 today I googled it and this came up. True, at this point I don’t know any boundaries anymore. As I’ve said before, I am you, you are me, everything, nothing. My stuff is your stuff and since this human existence is annoyingly limiting, I just wish I could make everyone experience what I am experiencing at any moment, so you wouldn’t miss any thoughts and insights, since I’m not able to type or talk as fast as all this amazing stuff happens.

Boundaries are non-existent for me anymore, okay? There is no such thing as concepts, I’m not embarrassed, I don’t think anything is impossible, I don’t care if I live or die, so I also don’t care about what happens to me πŸ˜‚. Maybe I’ll be lucky and someone will be so kind and remove me from this planet πŸ˜‚. But yeah, I don’t think consciousness will do me that favor yet πŸ˜‚. Gosh, I need to go to bed πŸ˜‚.

I’m not able to make decisions based on logic anymore, it’s all just intuition, like the right hemisphere of my brain has completely taken over. Fear is non-existent and sometimes I forget that not everyone functions like this yet and get a little reckless. But it’s fine. My intuition tells me that I have to keep going, regardless of whether other people are ready for it or not. It’s sink or swim, okay?! πŸ˜‚

4 thoughts

  1. Can’t say that I have experienced what you wrote in your last post exactly. I think I’ve woken up shaken from a few dreams but nothing to the extent of which you’ve described. You do seem pretty intuitive and that’s really cool in some ways.

    May I ask if you believe in psychics? Not those carny ones, but true actual ones with spiritual intuition.

    “Maybe I’ll be lucky and someone will be so kind and remove me from this planet…”

    Joking or not, I have to ask: are you doing alright?

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    1. Yes, I do believe, actually it’s not believing, it’s knowing, because I am one myself and experiencing it. Many people have such abilities, but disregard them or think they’re nothing special (for example seeing those colors whenever I close my eyes, it’s been like this since forever, but I thought it was just normal and everyone sees them) or yes, being intuitive in itself is just a psychic/spiritual ability, society just covers shit up and calls it “science”.

      Yes yes, I’m doing alright, I just joke about death a lot, because it’s nothing bad or special to me. I guess though people who aren’t this familiar with this stuff won’t understand πŸ€·β€β™€οΈπŸ˜‚

      Thank you for your thoughtful comment! Dreams themselves all have a meaning too! You can try to write them down or think about them and what they could mean πŸ™‚

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      1. That’s remarkable. I think there are more skeptics than those who believe in such abilities. Spirituality and science I would consider are separate, but I think with keeping an open mind, people would be a lot more accepting of these things as they happen. Hope I don’t sound crazy or anything. πŸ˜…

        Okay, that’s good to hear. I have a morbid sense of humor so I joke about stuff like that myself, but I just wanted to check in anyway.

        That is a good suggestion. Thank you! I will try that. I also hear that writing dreams down can also help with lucid dreaming, which is pretty neat.

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      2. Well, as you can see in the tagline of this blog, everything is spiritual, so science is just a part of it XD The skeptics are gonna die out soon! hahaha

        You do? I think we’ll have a lot of fun then XD

        Lucid dreaming is neat, but what’s even better is lucid living ;D πŸ˜‚ Because life itself is also just a dream πŸ˜€

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