Boy, physical existence is not funny 😂. I’ve said it before and I say it again, I don’t want to be trapped in this human body 😂. I just wanna dissolve and become light or nothing or whatever 😂. I hate this shit 😂. This may be my period talking or the fact that I slept at 5 am and woke up at 10:10 am, because consciousness thought it was a good time to hit me with a psychic experience or something 😂. Anyway, my brain is a little foggy right now, so I’ll just write down my thoughts and experiences for today in no particular order XD
Since Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha hasn’t responded to my comment, I assume he really liked my posts without reading them. Oh well 🤷. Maybe one caught red-handed 😂.
I also left a comment on Lucy’s blog (Lucy’s Works) aaand turns out she does actually read stuff, so I removed her from the “roast list” at her request. Btw, if you’re on there and read this and want to talk to me about it as well, then please talk to me! People never say anything, it’s annoying! Don’t be so afraid, people! In my case, I don’t really care if you want to insult me or get angry at me or whatever. I really don’t take anything personally anymore at this point.
Funny, in the past I would have been embarrassed and removed the post, but now I don’t think anything, I don’t feel guilty or bad. I don’t think anything of myself and I don’t think anything of other people. Shit I say on the surface is said out of consciousness, so there is no guilt or bad feeling coming up, there is no right or wrong. At this point, I wouldn’t even care if someone spread a really “embarrassing” picture or started a rumor or whatever about me somewhere, there is no fucking “I” anymore. I can’t. As I am writing this I’m tearing up again.
I am just whoever or whatever I look at. That’s what consciousness is. That’s what you are, that’s what I am, that’s what it means when someone says “We are all one”. We are literally all one, okay? All the same fucking consciousness that plays this fucking game for whatever reason. Man, come on consciousness, I’m tired, I don’t want to exist 😂. Please let me gooooo 😂.
Lucy, since you liked my last post, I want to ask you (and maybe also the other people who liked that post if you read this as well), did you have a similar experience? Do you know what I was talking about?
So and then I also sent that guy a reply straight up asking if he avoided talking about men and women, because he got hurt in the past, as I said I would do in this post. His replies have been really short and reserved, especially during the past 2 days 😂, he also hasn’t visited my blog in 2 days, Idk what’s going on, maybe he’s scared or something, maybe he got something going on. We’ll see. There are only 2 options here: shut down and run away or open up a little 😂. I keep drawing the new-romance-is-imminent card tho, so let’s see 😂. You never know what happens, maybe consciousness will send someone entirely different 😂.
Oh yes, and today I also read this:
“A person who is angel number 828 is the individual whose enthusiam knows no boundaries and their courage can help them to pursue their goals until they’re realized. This kind of persistence is one of a kind and can help number 828 to stand apart from others in many aspects.” (Source)
Because I came across angel number 828 today I googled it and this came up. True, at this point I don’t know any boundaries anymore. As I’ve said before, I am you, you are me, everything, nothing. My stuff is your stuff and since this human existence is annoyingly limiting, I just wish I could make everyone experience what I am experiencing at any moment, so you wouldn’t miss any thoughts and insights, since I’m not able to type or talk as fast as all this amazing stuff happens.
Boundaries are non-existent for me anymore, okay? There is no such thing as concepts, I’m not embarrassed, I don’t think anything is impossible, I don’t care if I live or die, so I also don’t care about what happens to me 😂. Maybe I’ll be lucky and someone will be so kind and remove me from this planet 😂. But yeah, I don’t think consciousness will do me that favor yet 😂. Gosh, I need to go to bed 😂.
I’m not able to make decisions based on logic anymore, it’s all just intuition, like the right hemisphere of my brain has completely taken over. Fear is non-existent and sometimes I forget that not everyone functions like this yet and get a little reckless. But it’s fine. My intuition tells me that I have to keep going, regardless of whether other people are ready for it or not. It’s sink or swim, okay?! 😂