(Man, the font in the headings doesn’t apply to non-latin characters, so it doesn’t look pretty when I use other languages in the title… Jeez… XD Why can’t people make stuff properly… XD)
何がそんなに怖いのか？！XD 更にいくつのヒントが必要ですか？ How many more hints do you need? XD Well, at this point it’s not just giving hints anymore, it’s just straight up confessing my… intentions and… feelings XD (yeah, I’m obviously not a fan of cheesy words like “love” and uhhh… XD what else did I want to say? There was another cheesy word that just ran through my mind, but I forgot XD) and asking you to tell me whether you accept it or not XD. Boy, you have no idea how bad I want to sleep with him XDDD. I’m interested in 恋tus! XD. This is a pun that came to my mind today! XD. 恋 means (romantic) love in Japanese and it’s pronounced like “koi” and then we add -tus and we get COITUS! XD I’m interested in both of course XD. But isn’t this fucking brilliant? 恋tus? I just can’t get over how brilliant this is XDDD.
Well, okay, I understand that he must be confused, because I change so much all the time XD, but I can’t help it XD. I’m the epitome of change, if you get involved with me, your life will never be the same again XD. With all the shit I’m experiencing and that’s running through my mind these days, I could probably write like one book a day XDDD.
Shit people say is not important. If you get hung up on words, you will never understand people, because most people act completely differently from what they say. There are some things that cannot be expressed with words, you know? #intuition #clairvoyance #clairsentience #claircognizance #energy #flow
Maybe consciousness wants me to do this shit to be rejected again XDDD. ‘Cause a while ago I talked to another guy who I had really fun conversations with, but hadn’t contacted in over a year or so, ’cause you know, they’re all so fucking passive and closed up, it’s annoying! XD もどかしい！（笑）Anyway, I just wanted to see if he remembers me or sometimes thinks of me XD, so there the message went. He said he remembers who I am, but forgot my name XD. I asked him if he found a woman (because that seemed to be the only concern of his life XD), he said no and asked me if I found a man. I said well, yeah, there is always someone I’m talking to, but I mean like talking to people in general, ya know?
Anyway, before that he seemed to be relatively open to a conversation, but as soon as I said that, BOOM! Shut down XDDD. There was this huge wave of pain (negative dense energy) coming through the screen as he went like, “You should talk to someone else. I don’t want to talk to you.”. Like reeeally icy-cold, he was (and probably still is) in so much pain, I felt so sorry for him! I told him alright, then I won’t talk to him anymore, but if he ever changes his mind, he can contact me anytime. Poor guy!
You see, some people completely shut down when they suffer, others realize that it’s an opportunity to grow and open up.
While I was writing this post I stumbled upon this post written by Lucy on Lucy’s Works. Aaand this part deeply resonated with me:
If we never
fall nor dream,
if we never
see the mind
the root of madness,
we could never
Do you get it? In order to become one (fall together) with consciousness again and realize the oneness and interconnectedness of everything, we have to fall (suffer), we have to dream, we have to recognize that our mind is just a tool that, in most cases, controls you more than you control it. You are controlled by your mind, you think you are it, but that’s not true, so not true.
We are dropped into this world knowing nothing, then the blank mind gets programmed with all kinds of bullshit by society and then you have to unlearn all that shit again in order to become free, which, for most of us, especially in developed countries, is a huge fucking pain in the ass XD.
Now excuse me, I have to go and get started on another post, because I keep discovering amazing and inspiring stuff everywhere and I want to share so much stuff with y’all, but I only have two hands XD.
Funny, when I was depressed, I wanted to leave this world, because it was too much for me to take, and now I wanna leave it because it’s too small and limiting, which is fucking frustrating XD. Oh, the irony XD.
Today is not a favorable day XD. I got up at like 7 pm XD and the Internet hasn’t been working well all day long and every 20 minutes fucking cigarette smoke comes in through the window today. I HATE THIS SHIT! SMOKERS NEED TO FUCKING DIE, OKAY?! I WANT TO SHOOT YOU ALL, FOR FUCK’S SAKE! STOP SMOKING, YOU FUCKING DUMBHEADS! XD
Okay, I think I won’t start another post, because it’s almost 1 am again and I’m tired, so I’ll just go to bed again after only being awake for like 6 hours XD. Shifts in consciousness, energy downloads, the development of new psychic abilities and all that stuff can really mess with your rhythm XD.
Ahh… someone please kill me… XD
#blogging #thoughts #psychology #sarcasm #humor #Japanese #lifeisafuckingjoke XD