It feels weird

to not be creatively active and putting stuff out there via the Internet. I mean, it’s only been 2 days since I haven’t used my drawing tablet because stuff came up with my new apartment, but it already feels like ages 🤷‍♀️

The physical world feels so unreal. These days, what I think of, suddenly appears in front of my eyes. Especially with my twin flame lol. I told him about a dream I had about him involving a washing machine, he found it so hilarious, thought about a washing machine and then, as we were talking on the phone, he saw a “random” washing machine on the street and sent me a pic lol.

When we first started talking, he called me “Hexe”, which means “witch” in German, then made up the name “Mary Hex” lol. You know what I saw shortly after at the supermarket? This:

“Witch ice cream”, even red (me) and blue (him) 😈. This has not existed before, even he was like WTF?! lol.

You might think that this is completely random, but no. I’m telling you, it’s me. It is happening to me every single day, I can tell you about tons of such experiences, about how what I think of just appears right in front of my eyes at some point. I can even show you pictures 🤷‍♀️

I am not able to think the way “normal” people in the system would think anymore. It’s rather hard to function in the physical world these days. I used to plan things ahead in detail, but I just don’t seem to be able to do that anymore. I just take things as they come and then see what I can do 🤷‍♀️. Usually, a solution or a better way presents itself.

What’s called “living in the present moment” may appear as clumsiness or inability to function in normal society. My mom is still sometimes like, “Don’t you wanna try some meds? You don’t seem to be able to function normally”. No, fuck you and your meds -.- I’m gonna flush them down the toilet, including you, for fuck’s sake. Who the fuck said I wanna be “normal” and fucking mediocre, huh? Who? If you wanna keep doing that and be fucking miserable, go ahead. But me, I’m fucking out of it.

Today I also noticed that my new home doesn’t have an Internet connection and my old contract was canceled before its actual expiration date lol. Funny, because I was thinking that I wanna buy an Internet stick or something anyway, because I’m tired of all this inconvenient cable shit and being dependent on my location, so I found the Vodafone GigaCube. How brilliant. I love technology 😈. One step further on my way to a maximally flexible lifestyle 😈

Someday, I’ll just control everything with my mind. I mean, I’m kinda doing it already, but you know, I won’t have to move a fucking inch to cook myself a meal anymore. Maybe I won’t even need to ingest physical food at all anymore 🤷‍♀️🤣😈 lol.


#life #art #poetry #thoughts #sarcasm #humor #diary#philosophy #spirituality #enlightenment #supernatural #energy #intuition #intuitive #dreams

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